A few weeks ago, I wrote a post about grief. I wanted to write that post as a reminder to myself that there’s always a sense of relief when you’ve processed through deep grief. But working through grief is also really difficult. When you’re in it, there’s a sense of deep hopelessness that permeates every aspect of your life. From the space of being grief-stricken it doesn’t seem like anything will ever be better again.
There are also other reasons why I avoid grief. I don’t want to feel bad for weeks, or months, much less years. Grief affects my productivity and general excitement for life and creative projects. So, I think it’s fair to say that I have heavy resistance to grief. I want to avoid it wholeheartedly because it’s so consuming. But, on the other hand, experience has shown me that it is necessary to process through my grief. I always feel lighter after. Something new opens up and that release eventually translates into more creativity and peace.