I’ve been meditating for years but I guess you could say that at times I wasn’t really meditating as much as just having conversations with myself while sitting still.
Lately, I’ve been able to notice this tendency instead of getting caught up in it. In the past, I often felt like I had to finish the conversation before finding stillness.
Whether the argument was with myself or with some other imagined person in my head, I felt like I just had to get my point across. I just had to make this person, or some stray aspect of myself, understand my point of view.
Lately I don’t finish the argument. I just drop it. To me that’s progress.