Category: Awareness

The Present viewed through the lens of the Future

The present, viewed though the lens of future, is often rushed or fearful.

We often do things, not just for the sake of doing them but because we want some outcome from the activity. Sometimes we even look down on activities that don’t yield some sort of gain somewhere down the line. We also find that many people around us discourage doing something for mere joy or fun of it. Many things can fall into this category. Running for example. We don’t just go running for the sake of running. We go running because we want to lose weight. Or because we want to improve our health. Or because we feel guilty about not doing enough exercise. But running for the mere sake of running is the best kind of running. It is not just an activity we do to get to some other more desirable state. It is just a fun activity (for me at least).

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The Present viewed through the lens of the Past

The present, viewed through the lens of the past, is often heavy and burdened.

This means that we can, in any given moment, choose to attach some narrative about our past experiences to whatever we’re doing or feeling.

An example would be pain. Pain, in the present moment, is just an unpleasant feeling. It can be as simple as that. But when we analyse an unpleasant feeling through the lens of a narrative that says I never feel well, or I always feel terrible that feeling becomes more burdened and heavy with the baggage of the past. Some part of our narrative might be true, but it doesn’t serve us. It often just weighs us down.

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Thoughts

There is sometimes pain in the stillness and that can be a barrier to sitting quietly and turning inward. But the alternative, I’ve found, is being knocked around by thoughts the entire day. You must still do this. Oh, remember that. What if that doesn’t work out. Instead of being present with whatever I’m engaged in I get distracted by these constant internal interruptions.

Sometimes I just give up arguing with all the thoughts in my head and ask myself: What is truly important? As I go down the winding road of ideas, I inevitably always get to the same answer: being present.

Why meditate

I’ve been wanting to write this post for a while, but I’ve also wondered if I have something new to contribute regarding the subject. There is so much information out there on why one should meditate, and what the benefits are, that I’m not sure there’s a lot left to say about it. So, I thought that I would write this from the perspective of why I meditate.

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A helpful little mindfulness tool

One question, courtesy of the Waking Up Meditation App, has been particularly helpful to me lately: Check your attitude in this moment? More often than not, when this question comes up during one of the daily guided meditations, I realise that I’m in a state of waiting, or wanting. Waiting for my meditation task to be over, or wanting to be somewhere different. I actually forget that I like meditation, that it’s more than just something to tick off my to-do list. For some reason, I completely forget that I want to be meditating. But when I realise this, I shift back into being more grateful and present.

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Spaciousness

Often when I encounter a perceived problem or disharmony in some situation I ruminate on what went wrong, or what should have happened instead. These ruminations can go on for days or sometimes weeks. Strangely, the idea that I can’t mentally fix the issue doesn’t occur to me unless I become present enough to just notice what’s going on. When I notice what’s going on, I notice the inner fight, the resistance, the unwillingness to accept.

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Why inner peace matters more than outer circumstances

After doing various drafts of this post I realised that there is really only one thing to say here, and that is that the neediness inside us will never be satisfied. Something inside—call it the ego, call it the small self—whatever that thing is will always want more, always need more, and will never be satisfied. So, we might as well be at peace now.

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Two modes of being: The locust and the lotus.

Every so often I forget to make the present moment a priority. The mode I usually go into is one that spirals into a feeling of neediness and anxiety. It’s like being driven by a perpetual unrest inside. It feels like a grabby-ness, a wanting-to-get, or just a wanting-to-be-somewhere-else.

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